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This couldn't be happening. No. Not now. Please.

"Donghae! Please. Don't-"

He chokes a little, the threat of tears lodging itself firmly in his throat. Donghae, his Hae, couldn't be doing this. No way. Hands claw against the ground and he looks up.

"Why? Donghae?!"

Donghae. His Donghae. There was so much he needed to say but nothing that meant anything was escaping his lips. Why was is it so hard? there was never this problem, and now... Now it came to this.

He had loved him.

He still loved him.


His voice fades to a mere whisper, the conflicting emotions fighting for control and strangling his voice. How could he do this? He strains to make out Donghae's face in the flickering shadows. The emotion that so easily played across the others face was gone.

"Donghae please. Say something. Anything. Tell me why!"

The first tears fight their way free and trickle down his cheeks. A sob rises in his throat.

"Hae. No!"

The faint light glints off something metal in Donghae's hands.

A gun.

"No. Nonononononono-"

Donghae raises it.

Breathe. Breathe.

"Please tell me! Why Donghae? Hae?"


"Say something! Anything!"

 Oh god please no.

"I love you!"

A finger on the trigger and then-


"I'm sorry it had to be this way"

Donghae turns and looks at the body sprawled on the floor. and pulls the radio out of his pocket.

"Sir. The south Korean spy has been neutralized."


Donghae pockets the radio once again.

"You know. I do have one thing to tell you."

He turns away.

"I loved you too... Yesung."

A/N: I don't even  know what this is. I wasn't even thinking as I wrote it. and I meant it to HanHae but I got to the end and out popped yesungs name. thinking back now I kind of like it. I think it fits.

Basically I think YEsung was spy in North Korea, and Donghae is a charged with getting rid him. I Think its rather a split between Super junior, with certain members being spies and certain members  being actual north koreans, military or not.

WHat does Everyone think?Where do you think the rest of super junior will end up? who is on what side? *shrugs* I have no ideas for this universe, So if anyone wants to play around with it they are welcome to.
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Felt like sharing something ^^ 1600x900 <3
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So, Have a lot of stuff to say, figured I'd make a post to get it off my chest.

Harry Potter, Arashi, HSJ, Work, and Real life related talks shall follow under the cut.
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I had NO Idea what I was getting into, lol.

So i got my first job ever, working out as a housekeeper for a resort on the beach. I'm stationed in the lobby so I keep the place swept, mopped, the public bathrooms clean and stocked, wiped down the tables, furniture straightened, ect. and man...

I will never take it for granted again, after 8 hours of cleaning I'm so sore, and i get to go again tonight TT_TT at least I'm making slightly more than minimum wage at eight dollars an hour. but this work is hard, and its damn hot here in florida TT_TT

Oh well. Keep focused on the money. I can do this. I just wish that i didn't have to work quite so late, my shift is from 3-11 pm. and I'm bringing dinner and an energy drink tonight. last night IU forgot and I was soooooooo hungry and tired when i got off.

Wish me luck!


Jun. 3rd, 2011 09:47 pm
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Kinda Curious F-List, Gimme Ten K-pop songs that you don't think most people will have heard. Something that's a little off the beaten track, something that makes you wonder, "why don't I hear people talking about this song?"

Comment here if you want, or better yet, make a post in your own journal with links to where we can find your songs. pose the question to your own friends. I'm curious to see what people come up with. Lets spread the love~

To Start us off, I'll share my 10~
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ahhhhhhh  Hope I did welll in bringing you soem new music, or maybe showing something you haven't heard in a while ^^ Feel free to share some songs that you don't think many people have heard hehe~


Jun. 3rd, 2011 05:09 pm
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Some 2NE1 Icons ^^

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I've been pretty absent from LJ for a while Haven't I? I'm sorry >.< A lot of stuff as happened and now I'm finally feeling the urge to post again.

I don't have any update on Child at Heart for anyone, sadly, but hopefully I'll push through and find the inspiration to write again... but no promises. I feel bad for leaving this so long, and teh next chapter is even half written, and I'm determined to get to the end of this one.

To celebrate my return to LJ I felt I'd Share some stuff that has built up over my Hiatus. Mainly some graphics, but there a few drabbles and ficlets in there too.

First of some HanHae
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and then some more walls
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Some Zhou Mi icons, just a few of the better ones lol.

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FICS BANNERS! For Only a Cat, and Child at Heart hehehehehe~

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And here are a few little drabbles from this meme i started but never finished. Figured I'd might as well post what I had.

Title: Not So Different
Characters: TVXQ's Changmin and U-kiss's Kevin
Summary: Kevin comes to Changmin with a little problem

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Title: Not so Bad
Pairings: HanMi, slight KyuChul
Summary: Han Geng has a a bone to pick with Zhou Mi

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Title: Not So Forgetten
Characters: Suju's Donghae and Arashi's Aiba Masaki
Summary: What happens you bump into your past but don't know it?

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currently attacking my Old collection of KAT-TUN photos.

Expect many, many, many wallpapers lol.

Roughly fifty down, currently 73 to go, and more to come. hehehehehehehe~
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Hmmm~ Been in a Girl group mood, and felt like sharing some pretty haha~
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Been eating a lot of ramen lately, And Kinda curious what everyone puts in theirs?

I've only got a microwave, so for me, I usually add things that don't have to be cooked in it: Cheese (American, Muenster, mozzarella, Provolone) , Kimchi (So good in the korean Ramyun... never tried it with American ramen, an dI don't really want to bleh), Onion (regular and green), Lunch meat (roast beef normally), imitation crab, chicken, tofu, beef strips, Soy sauce, wtf is it... sriracha Chili sauce? yeah thats good too~, Hard boiled eggs....

My fridge smells soooo wierd XD

What about you guys? Do you have anything you put in your ramen?


Apr. 16th, 2011 08:30 am
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Soooooo~ [ profile] summer0smiles and I decided to throw together a little something for all the HanHae fans out there.

I asked around the last chapter of Child at Heart, and there seemed to be some interest in the idea, So over the last week or so, We've put together

For all you HanHae fans out there, We have a Comm, now! I'm hoping it will stay active, but feel free to spread it around to people, as we're a small fandom. I'm planning on trying to affiliate and promote it at other comms, but every little bit helps. Lets spread the HanHae love!

Also... layout is still in prgress, if anyone is any good at them and would like to offer their expertise? would be much appreciated *sighs*
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feel like right now is the battle of the girl groups lol, SO MANY performing and releasing stuff right now.

who all are on the Music show right now/have debuted or comeback in the past month?
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So what about everyone else? Any Girl groups you are keeping an Eye on? Excited for come backs and Debuts of all the boy groups that seem to be lining up for the next few months?


Apr. 10th, 2011 12:29 pm
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Ah... It feels like a nightmare I can't wake up from right now. I'll turn around, and expect her to come barging through the front door. I keep adressing my other best friend by her name. MY sisters says something and I swear it sounds just like her.

It doesn't feel real at all.  Like some sick, horrible HORRIBLE april fools joke.

I really can't deny it, but it doesn't mean it doesn't feel that way. I went to the funeral. I saw her... I went in her room.

God she had so much of my old stuff. my magazines, my posters, my figurines, my pokemon and yu gi oh cards, my old sketch books, I found a few of my old shirts in her closet...

Her parents gave me her Shinee CD I bought her for christmas. I didn't really want it back.

I'm kinda glad to be in the dorm again now. it was really hard being at home. Everywhere I went all I had to do was close my eyes, or not even that, and I could see her.

At the gas station where we did late night snack runs. the Grocery stores that I hated shopping alone in, so she came with me. In every room of my house, from my old bedroom where we spent so much time, to my new one, where the only other Time i had stayed in was with her. The mall, Target, the beach. The restaurant we always went to, to starbucks.

We did everything together, so I guess its only fair that everything reminds me of her.

I went in her house and you practically see her standing there. it was tough. I kept expecting her to walk in the kitchen and try and feed me lunch. or put in her K-pop DVD in the living room and start dancing or something. Its so empty there now. so quiet.

This summer isn't going to be easy. She was over at my place or i was at hers literally, at least 3 or 4 times a week. We were in and out of each others houses all day long even on days we didn't spend together. It was routine, expected, that if we weren't busy with family or chores, that we were together.

and now she isn't there, and its just me... just me.  I don't like that. I liked being "Tori and Melanie" and now I'm not. I have other friends, but none that i spent as much time with or was as in tune with. Its really jarring. It was part of being home. when i'm here at my dorm its "tori". and thats fine. but its been a long time since its been just me at home. Sure my family is there. My other friends live right across town.

Apparently, its not the same for everyone. I mentioned this to my other best friends, and they were surprised. but for me and for Mel, we are , were, completely different around our family and around our friends. Its was really nice to just be able to let go and be myself, and know that neither of us had to live up to expectations that we normally upheld.


I'm just tired. Mentally, emotionally, physically.

I didn't sleep well last night. I went to her funeral yesterday. the thing at her house afterwards. out to dinner with my family. packed for my flight at 7 in the morning.

I held it together ,held it together, held it together all day. I wen tto bed about 11:30 and woke up at 2:00 in the morning. I dunno why. but I started crying. finally, it took so long. I'd been wanting to all day and I hadn't, and I don't think I've cried so hard in my life. One of these days I'll learn to cry around people. crying by myself is just depressing. My stuffed animals and pillow don't do me much good sometimes.

they sure are good a muffling the sound of sobbing though.

I thought about getting my mom, but i didn't wanna wake rher up, and eventually cried myself out around 3:30... and then my alarm went off at 4:30 for me to get up and get ready because we had to leave at 5:30 to go to the airport.

Ugghh so tired.


Apr. 6th, 2011 10:41 pm
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Guys. I think... I'm gonna call a hiatus to my fics for a little while.

I just... I just got some bad news. One of my very very best friends passed away yesterday, and I'm flying back home for the funeral this weekend. and I really don't think I can write fic right now.

I don't think any of you guys knew her, she had an LJ but never updated it...

But I can't...She lived next door and was my best friend, and now Who am gonna be "unni" to? Where is my My Mochi-ah? Who is gonna be the Eunhyuk to my Donghae? the Taemin to my Key?

You... Stupid. stupid stupid stupid.

Why didn't you talk to me? Was it boredom? You had so much left to do, baby, and now its all gone like that?

i didn't hug you goodbye when i left after spring break, cause It was only going to be a month and a half till i came back home. I told myself I'd give you an extra big one when i got back. We never got to go that korean restaurant together like we swore we were gonna do. I can't buy you anymore rated M video games because you were too young, but i was trying to convert you into loving gaming. You didn't show me that really cute Chinese guy that you swore was the cutest thing ever.

You were gonna learn mandarin and teach me remember? Now who's gonna do that?

You can't argue with me over if YunJae is better than Jaemin, or Eunhae is better than HanHae.

The last thing you posted on my FB was about how Eunhyuk's one piece shirt reminded you of me. that was about a minute after the last post on your own wall. We were gonna watch that this summer. Remember? I promised you we'd start from the beginning. It was my favourite, and I really wanted to share it with you. I thought you would like it.

We never finished watching the SS2 DVD you gave me for Christmas. You may have been Shawol, but you always loved super junior too... Still, I remember how much you hugged me when you opened your Shinee album I bought you. I still feel guilty that your gift was so much more expensive than mine, but you were so damn excited when you gave it to me.

And you never beat final fantasy XIII did you? It was your favourite game though...

Who's gonna laugh at all our inside jokes now? I have no one to tell them to. Who else can i send into hysterical laughter by just saying "Donghae's..." or "Kyuhyun's face" ?

You aren't going to be able to feed me your culinary experiments, I've never met anyone else who makes Ramen tacos hahaha~

We can't drag you're mom into bringing us to taco bell late at night anymore. I can't just walk over and not even knock on your door before entering, and laughing my ass off when i surprise you so bad you jump a foot in the air.

Who's going to accompany me, When i go grocery shopping and I'm bored and end up dancing to Kpop in the middle of the frozen food section? Who else knows My unholy addiction to omelets? I can't make you anymore DVD's of MV's to watch. I can't laugh because you know all of the choreography to shinee's songs.

Who's going to bug me about getting a boyfriend? Get frustrated with me and make smart ass comments and faces, and stay on skype with me until 4 oclock in the morning?

When we first met, you didn't like K-pop. When we first met, you didn't even like asian stuff. When we first met, you never stayed up late. When we first met, you didn't play video games at all.

I don' t think I ever told you this, but you were like my little sister, Mochi-ah. If i wasn't at your house, then you were at mine. we were practically family.

Just, Mochi... Baby girl.... this was preventable. this didnt have to happen. You didn't want this. We didn't want this. So why? Why?

My baby-Mochi-Ah... I love you. Saranghae.

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Title: The Fox and the... Cat?
Pairing:SiHae and QMi
Length: 395 words (Short!)
Summary: Once again in the same verse as Only a Cat and Happy Birthday?, the return of Kitty!Hae. Siwon and Donghae meet up with Kyuhyun and Zhou Mi.  Featuring Fox!Mimi~
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Title:Smile Through Your Tears
Pairing: SiHanHae
Rating: M
Genre: Tragedy/Angst
Length: 1532
Warnings:Death, Suicide, Self-Harm, Blood, and Some language
Summary: This wasn't what he expected. Not this. And more than anything else, what would haunt him till the day he died, was the painted the others face.
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Title: Child at Heart Chapter 8
Rating: PG-13 for language
Length: 1057  words
Pairing: HanHae
Summary: Han Geng thinks that Donghae would make a good little brother, and denies that his affections could lay in any other direction. Unfortunately for him, he may just find that you should be careful what you ask for, Some wishes have a nasty habit of coming true.
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If this actually posts up I'm going to be pissed.

I have, repeatedly tried to upload the next chapter of "Child at Heart" today. I've been doing this for the past f hours off and on and no luck.

Why will you not let me post?

On and unrelated note, I think I'm going to chop my hand off. Its not simply content be numb. Oh no.

it seems to have decided that aching and throbbing like hell is the best way to go. but not all the time to where I can tune it out, but and freakin on, and i can't figure out what is triggering the damn thing. and so I'm so pleasantly surprised when it randomly hurts to type >.<

and I swear it was only two fingers before, so hte middle finger tingling? not so happy about that. and would you PLEASE LET ME STRAIGHTEN THE OTHER TWO OUT ALL THE WAY?

honestly, all i want is a functional dominant hand. Is that so hard?

and its raining today, and i have two class completely across campus, and its friggin lightning and thundering and PLEASE cancel calss today.

I feel like all I've done is bitch and complain this past week. and I have the next chapter done. all done. but i can't post it.


Apr. 4th, 2011 12:09 am
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So i was planning on uploading the next chapter of child at heart tonight.... and then i realized that the feeling of constant nausea that had been slowly creeping up on me the last couple of days had increased ten fold.

I still need to revise the current chapter from the first draft, and i don't think I'm going to be able to concentrate enough tonight not to butcher it.

Sorry guys. give me another day or two and I'll have it for you , i promise.

now I'm going to go back to laying down and hoping that i don't require use of the restroom before my dorm mate gets out, because i really have nowhere to throw up besides the toilet.



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